THE DOCUMENTARY

Hello everyone!

I know I've been gone for quite a long time due to personal reasons but I guess I'm back and better than ever! My last post was back in February, so long ago now! Not really much has changed since then except of course changes through hormones and other things like that, breast growth is insane! I've not really noticed a lot of physical changes but maybe that's because I see myself every day. A few people have told me that my face is getting thinner though, I'm not sure what to think of that to be honest, it's probably just my real bad diet haha!

Anyway the reason I really wanted to do this post was to go into a bit of detail regarding the documentary that I'm a part of, it's called Transsexual Stories, which aired on the 24th of August 2015 on channel BBCone Scotland.
Although this documentary consists of 5 transsexual women (including myself) from Scotland, I will be speaking only from my experience during filming and the aftermath.

I was approached to be a part in the documentary back 2013 and when I was approached I had no idea what to think of it, I thought it was just going to be a little short documentary but I was wrong and it's an hour long one haha! I was a bit wary of the whole thing as I've posted my life and work on the internet and I had never done filming with me in front of the camera, it was weird at first and I didn't really know how to be on screen. It obviously felt a little weird being filmed doing my daily routine or at work doing makeups. Filming got a lot easier each time we did it, the whole thing was filmed over a year I believe so we didn't film every single day, it was once every couple of months or if something exciting was happening we would film it.

We got to film some fantastic scenes but of course some won't make the cut unfortunately! We filmed lots of me walking for some reason! I also had the chance to have some of my friends on camera with me, we filmed at a salon I used to work at which was so much fun and we all had such a fun day, we also got to film at a carnival with some of my closest friends which was probably the best day we had filming. It was just such a hilarious day and we had so much attention on us that day it was insane! I had people coming up to me asking if I was a porn star or a celeb because we were being filmed on some of the rides, it was absolutely hilarious!

A lot was going on in my personal life through the course of filming, I attempted suicide and done other things to myself because of how low I was feeling, I didn't see the point in life anymore I was ready to end it all forever, luckily I didn't and my best friend came to my rescue. Filming the scene where I was talking about it was really hard for me as you will probably be able to see. Although I was really depressed and didn't really enjoy myself then I thought I'd still talk about it on camera as hopefully I could at least help someone in the world. I don't really want to get into to much about this as the documentary and filming was an amazing experience and I don't want to think of it as a bad time.

I've had so much support from my family, friends and peers, I absolutely couldn't have done it without them. I'd like to thank everyone especially my family and my good friend Joe for being so supportive of myself, my transition, my life and accepting me for me.

I'd also like to thank everyone who clicks on my blog and gives it a little read, it gives me so much inspiration to continue with this blog and in life. I love when people tell me how much my blog has opened their minds, answered unanswered questions and when people tell me I'm an inspiration.. you're all so lovely and I'm so happy that people enjoy reading about my life and my experiences.


I'm looking forward to hear everyone's thoughts on the documentary.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b0675519


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