INDRODUCTION TO TRANSSEXUAL TIMES

Hello everyone.

My name is Bee Wallace, I'm 16, I live in Scotland and I'm Transsexual.
I thought I would create this blog to see the progress through my transition and to help other young people going through the same thing as me.

I'll tell you a little more about myself.
I was born male with the name Lee William Wallace on the 26th of August 1996. Everything about my birth was normal, everything went well. Honestly the first thing I remember is being at one of my mother's friends house and she had a daughter, I remember wearing her sparkly red high heels and walking about in them. Through the years I became more feminine. I grew up with my brother Stuart and my cousin Lynsey, I feel as if I bonded more with Lynsey than I did with Stuart although he lived in the same house as me. He was always into cars and other manly things, I was always into Barbie and girly things. I was always more of a mummy's boy and I loved spending time with my Mother and Gran, I did spend time with my Grandad and my Father but I didn't feel as comfortable to talk about stuff with them.

As I grew older I didn't feel normal, I was bullied in School and was called ''gay'' a lot, this really bothered me because I didn't think I was gay. I was attracted to men but I didn't think I was gay. I didn't go to School for a full year in Primary 6, I missed out on a lot! The bullying was terrible and I couldn't handle it at all, so when my Mother used to take me to School I used to go in one door and come out the other, I hated School with a passion. In primary 7 I returned to school, I was feeling a bit more confident and I didn't let people get to me. I tried to keep my head down and just get on with things. When it came to first year, I was really excited I had good friends to go up to high school with (mostly girls). The first day was okay, it was a bit boring but that's just School isn't it? In the first week of high school, I got excluded for 3 days because I seriously assaulted a boy in my class for calling me gay. The rest of high school was a blur, I was fighting a lot, I used to bunk school a lot! I only had like 10% attendance at School. At the end of Second year, I was removed from School and I started to get home taught, I loved it! Getting home taught was the best thing for me, if it wasn't for that I wouldn't be in this position right now.

I started to experiment with make-up around the time of getting home schooled, then I realized what I wanted to do in life, I wanted to be a make-up artist. I played with make-up all the time, I started shaving my eyebrows of and drawing them on. I had blue hair at the time so I'd draw my eyebrows on blue. My mum was a bit concerned because she thought if I started to wear make-up then I would get bullied again and I did, I had people shouting at me in the street but then it came to me, If I want to look the way I do I have to get on with it because people will always judge. As I  was experimenting with make-up I wanted to look more and more like a girl. I've always felt like a girl so I wanted to look the part and I would tell everyone I was Androgynous but in reality all I wanted was to be a girl. So I was ''Anrogynous'' for a while but then I wanted to tell my mum that I wanted to change my gender. I told her, she was fine with it, she said she always knew. All of my family have been fine with it.

I love my life now. I live my life as a girl and I will continue to live my life as a girl. I love being a girl and I cannot wait to start hormones and get cosmetic surgery to make myself the girl I always was.

Right now I'm focusing on becoming a better make-up artist and I have my first appointment at the gender clinic on the 12th of December 2012. I am really scared and nervous! I can't wait though, it's going to be the start of my life.

I'm going to continue writing this blog and posting pictures so I can help other trans people with their transition.

Get back to me!
Bee xo